“I grew up in the South, in a traditional conservative county. My father raised me as a non-denominational Christian and always emphasized Jesus’s love and sacrifice for his believers. When I came to grips with my bisexuality, I did doubt my spot in God’s heaven but I was quickly reconciled that God has loved me through all my sins, no matter what they are.”
“No matter what, remember that Jesus loves you
and you always have a spot in his kingdom as long as you accept him.”-Keshawn
Above all things, have unfailing love for one another, because love covers a multitude of sins.1 Peter 4:8
It is so wild how we slip into old thinking patterns or fall into the same pit of worries that we do. Even if we know we have a savior we can call on at anytime or a supportive family or group of friends. The world can so easily condition us into thinking that we are alone and need to feel fear or shame for who we are.
Even though I recently have recommitted my life to following Christ and I feel a great calling to ministry (in all of it’s forms, particularly congregation work, counseling and program development for the underserved and vulnerable) – I still have been slow to share with a lot of folks in my life about this calling and this path.
Fear is so powerful… especially after seeing how the world thinks about women and seeing what the world thinks about those who are fierce allies for the LGBTQ+ community. I have gotten so used to this dual life because of the fear and internalized homophobia that I have lived with for so long. I allowed what others thought about who I was to lead me to think that God didn’t have a place for me. I thought my existence was deeply flawed. This kept me from allowing myself to feel God’s love and to know that God does have a place for me.
“Do not be shaped by this world. Instead be changed within by a new way of thinking. Then you will be able to decide what God wants for you. And you will be able to know what is good and pleasing to God and what is perfect.” Romans 12:2
So, over Christmas holiday, I told my mom that it was divinity school that I was applying to. I was so worried with how she would reply, I let my fear kept me from sharing this amazing & joyous thing with one of the most incredible and supportive people in my life. My mom’s reaction was, of course, so kind and supportive. I acknowledge how fortunate I am to have an amazing family who has always had my back and given me so much support and love. I know there are so many out there who do not have this support and compassion in their lives. I hope through this site you feel affirmed and eventually find the appreciation and love that you deserve.
To those who may stumble across this blog and have felt these same experiences I have described. If the world has ever made you feel worthless, never let the world make you doubt your value or your worth. God has a place for you regardless of what this world thinks of you. You are loved and you have a purpose.
“Don’t fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name; you are Mine.” Isaiah 43:1
I have really been struggling lately with some ethical dilemmas at my day job. In short, I am a social worker and it’s not unusual for our workplaces to let us down or disappoint us. Recently, my workplace has really taken a nose dive. I usually pride myself on keeping healthy boundaries between work and my personal life but lately, it’s all sort of spilled over and it really feels like it’s time for me to move on. It’s bittersweet. When I started at this agency, I really envisioned myself staying there for longer than I have. Even so, I feel refreshed in that I have seminary to look forward to, and from there, I can keep trying to better my community and help others.
As previously mentioned, I got a few emails from folks across the country and world who are interested in being featured on this blog! That’s so exciting to me! Unfortunately, because of the work stress lately, I am just now finally getting to reply to them. I will be sending them a message inviting them to see the blog and my next post will actually be a post of the typical types of questions I will be asking in my conversations with them as I get to know them. THEN, I hope to turn this blog into nearly 95% features of really incredible LGBTQ+ folks (and their allies). I am so excited and so blessed to be able to do this. God is good. Every day.
So, it’s tricky riding the wave of an exciting, new idea. Before I get too ahead of myself with the idea that tons of little gay Christians want to share very personal stuff with me on this blog – I thought I would make a quick survey and see what kind of data I can pull back in.
So, I made a 10 question survey on Survey Monkey and posted the link on my personal Facebook and also on an LGBTQ+ Christian Subreddit.
As of this publish date/time, here is a summary of the data:
27 people took the survey.
48% grew up in the Bible Belt.
66% of respondents are non-straight, on queer spectrum.
75% men (gender identity being transman or cisgender male)
78% currently a practicing Christian.
51% were Christian prior.
33% said it was/is/can be difficult to practice their spiritual or religion traditions because of aspects of their identity, relating to gender or sexuality.